As I type, I hurt. I can't believe it took the death of my wife to push me to a place where I would start a blog. But at this moment, I feel like I need an outlet - not only to get my thoughts down, but to have a way to let everyone know how I and my girls are doing.
It seems like a year since her death, it seems like just yesterday she was still alive. Why do... no, the answers to the "Why" questions will only come when we see face to face, and then they won't matter anymore. I loved my wife with reckless abandon - and I know she loved me in return. How can anyone ask for more? God does not promise tomorrow, but He does promise to be with us always. I cling to my late wife's favorite verse...
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."
I don't know how long I will keep this effort up, or what this blog will become. Will I stop after today's first post, or look back after years of regular updates? Will the posts reflect my journey through the grieving process, or be an oversized, public refirgerator for pictures of my daughters? I don't know, and won't until the God calls me home, where I can both see Him, and see her again.
A Long Weekend Away
12 years ago
5 comments:
Steven, thank you for starting your blog. I have thought of Michell every day since she left us on December 27. We want to see your girls grow up...we want to see what God is doing in and through you all. I miss Michell so much and feel so blessed that I had the privilege of her friendship. We love you and the girls and are praying for y'all! -Vonda
Steven, I am Vonda's mom and I had the joy of meeting your beautiful wife on 2 occassions at the Varsity when she came down from Tenn to visit Vonda. What a precious little wife and mother she was! I will never forget my telling her that next time she needed to bring you and the girls. She spoke so highly of you always letting us know that you wanted her to enjoy her time without interruptions of the children. Isn't it wonderful that God gave you such a warm heart for your children that you were so accustomed to spending time with them that now, when their Mommy is absent from them, that you can comfort them better than anyone. You will be able to do more than you ever think you can. You can share with them over their lives what a wonderful Wife and Mother she was in order that they can have a role model for their own lives.
I hope you kow that we will be praying for you and those precious girls.
Keep the blog up. It will be good therapy for you and will be a joy to all who knew Michelle and knows you and the girls!
Love,
Linda and James Williams
Steven,
I got your email about Michelle while I was out of the country. Even though it has been so many years, you both made such an impact on me and Michelle was one of those women who truly modeled what it means to be a godly woman who loves the Lord with all her heart, soul, and mind. When I heard the news, I cried and continue to cry for you when I remember to pray for you. I am going to do my best to come on March 3rd for the visitation. Thank you for starting your blog. It is so good to hear your heart and know what the Lord is doing in your life. I can't imagine how hard this is, but I know you are being sustained and comforted by a loving Savior. I hope to see you soon!
Amber
Steven,
I got your email about Michelle while I was out of the country. Even though it has been so many years, you both made such an impact on me and Michelle was one of those women who truly modeled what it means to be a godly woman who loves the Lord with all her heart, soul, and mind. When I heard the news, I cried and continue to cry for you when I remember to pray for you. I am going to do my best to come on March 3rd for the visitation. Thank you for starting your blog. It is so good to hear your heart and know what the Lord is doing in your life. I can't imagine how hard this is, but I know you are being sustained and comforted by a loving Savior. I hope to see you soon!
Amber
Steven,
I got your email about Michelle while I was out of the country. Even though it has been so many years, you both made such an impact on me and Michelle was one of those women who truly modeled what it means to be a godly woman who loves the Lord with all her heart, soul, and mind. When I heard the news, I cried and continue to cry for you when I remember to pray for you. I am going to do my best to come on March 3rd for the visitation. Thank you for starting your blog. It is so good to hear your heart and know what the Lord is doing in your life. I can't imagine how hard this is, but I know you are being sustained and comforted by a loving Savior. I hope to see you soon!
Amber
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